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For some reason, someone I know stresses a lot on talking out what one feels about any issue at hand. True indeed, if not for other reasons talking helps in settling matters amicably in my opinion. The same is the reason for a few status messages that I put up on IM clients, Social networking platforms etc. I don't really care if the person(s) concerned read them leave alone understanding the trouble they have caused though in principle I would be more than glad if they ask for a reason and get to understand the issue :)

Lately the number of caustic messages have decreased I must admit, with the last one being a week back(iirc) for a cousin of mine. I am able to rant it out to people when it is someone else who started the fire, but when it is appa ? I am seriously chocked by the lack of options.

I do know that you have (y)our problems puzzling you day and night. But does the fact that I wake up at untimely hours of the day, skip meals, take things easily mean that I am either unaware of the issues or that I am not serious about them, no you are abjectly wrong. And please don't start off when I say you are wrong like you do during any other conversation. There are reasons to why I do each of those, though it might seem unreasonabe to you.

All said and done, I seriously wish you read the last couple of posts. No I don't worry that something doesn't happen in a certain manner, but all that I worry about is why should I be the cause to see you suffer. Partially because I am waiting to clear this one bag I have and I don't want more stuff being put into it, partly I don't/can't see people around suffer per se and being not able to help them out. Though I seriously hope things get back on track soon, I really cannot do much about things that are beyond my control. Wish you do understand this for every system has its own breaking point and the more you induce it to move towards the point the efforts to bring it back to normalcy are gonna be many fold. And thanks for everything you've given me appa. I am sure about this, "Just because you didn't understand that I am not to be blamed, I would certainly not try to negate your sufferings since the day one I started to breathe." :)

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